Sunday, August 31, 2008
The Randomness
Ever so often, its "christian! you know..." or " dont tell " or whatever that goes along the line of being the middle man. Hearing shit about people, mediating between loggerheads, or plain just being a "listen-box". I am cool with that, friends mean alot to me.
But maybe it'd be nice if i had someone to tell my own crap to. Hell, to explode to.
Considerations of whether this might upset everything or make things midly worse?
ALWAYS THERE.
Consequences.Consequences.Consequences.
So at the crux of it all? Who can i tell all this to?
Well, if everything is to remain (and perhaps rightly so) SANE,
i'll have to grit it and keep quiet about this.
I don't know how much longer i can take this, but bear it i will.
Someone... wait. Noone.
You know though _______________, it'd be nice if you could tell me the truth about all this.
I dont care what happens, or is happening, or what wont happen. REALLY.
But i hope you realise how i hate being let down by a friend.
(or manipulated)
I fucking miss you.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Could Be Anything
-The Eams Era
Run along, run a long way to find a one
Find a one who could turn you on
Underneath a cloudless sun
I certainly hope that you are happy
With your new change of company
Surrounded by your enemies
Can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
And if you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
Run along, run a long way to find a one
Find a one who could turn you on
Underneath a cloudless sun
I certainly hope that you are happy
With your new change of company
Surrounded by your enemies
If you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
And can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
Oh, oh, there's a lot of things I could say to make you understand
I don't have time to explain
Can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
And if you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
And can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
If I could be…
-The Eams Era
Run along, run a long way to find a one
Find a one who could turn you on
Underneath a cloudless sun
I certainly hope that you are happy
With your new change of company
Surrounded by your enemies
Can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
And if you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
Run along, run a long way to find a one
Find a one who could turn you on
Underneath a cloudless sun
I certainly hope that you are happy
With your new change of company
Surrounded by your enemies
If you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
And can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
Oh, oh, there's a lot of things I could say to make you understand
I don't have time to explain
Can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
Can't you see if I could be anything
And if you say everything will want to go your way
I will turn you away as easily as I turned you into me
And can't you see if I could be anything I want to be I would be you, see,
If I could be…
Saturday, August 23, 2008
RELEASED!!!!
Okay. It has been one hectic block.
Well, aside from the assignments and projects, tons o stuff/conflict/situations/outings/whatever going on too. Maybe a little too much to handle properly in too little time! On a better note, Coffee and unwinding with 2/4 of the Ferris Loops was awesome as well and much needed i should say. Been spaced out, angsty, blank and just thinking too much these few weeks.
Nooo matter! With the new block, comes a fresh take!
Can finally breathe that sigh of relief.
prepress turned out great.
the scented pages thing worked out. HELLL YESSS
i am a happy kid.
goodbye blog! hello weekend!
STUCK ON: Another Day - Paul McCartney
Wickedly insanely lovely impossible righteously amazingly awesome song! Its gonna be my get up song in the days to come.
Fresh!
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
enough is enough.
I am tired. tired of understanding people, tired of entertaining. Hell, tired of even bothering.
Things seldom ever get returned or worse, thrown back with distain and hate.
It's just not worth it.
I dont wanna try anymore. Maybe its better to just tune out like i used to.
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Drinkup.
Dinner/drinks with taller Veron was great. Well, somewhat with the screaming China Chinese people around showing undoubted patriotism toward their president on TV screens.
(The 2008 Beijing Olympics).
I'm glad we could meet up, and i'm not sure how many more times we'll have left to spend once i move.
Rest assured though, i will try my best! It was nice getting together to share stuff that's been happening at a whir, insane school work and more importantly, heavy thoughts that you know, just seem to weigh you down. Conversations with Veron are strangely, releasing.
(and insanely uberly groovy funnily impossibly comfortingly awesome)
Jamming with the band was as usual, an additional stress reliever and a great way to express some solid emotion through music. Once again, music is the one thing that never fails to put some light on a gloomy day. Hell, a month (or millenia) for that matter. Was extremely delighted to cover Iron Maiden's "Hallowed Be Thy Name". An old song in our repertoire, but one appropriately done! Love the Guitar harmonies. I just pray our showcase next week goes alright. With all thats been going on, the added pressure on us to perform is actually growing dangerously immense. Heads up christian, and plectrum at the ready!
Lots have been happening lately, and sometimes it just gets extremely frustrating. What with the moving and packaging, cant you give me a break now and then? A week away, and i say goodbye to the neighbourhood that has brought countless amazing memories. Memories, that can persist as new experiences though.. if i can find a way to stay intouch. I don't know who i'll meet in the West, or even how coping with the distance might turn out.
But the motto holds true.
Friends will never be forgotten. (and definitely, not out of touch)
Perhaps im overreacting? But sifting through dozens of travel directories attempting to find a quick, convenient bridge from new location to old and failing, doesnt help.
Well maybe i am.
Alright, National Day later, along with helping out with unpacking over at the otherside.
Next week, its goodbye old house.
Before that however, a lil farewell and tribute from the Ferris Loops!
Good night.
awkward. what was i thinking?
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Eat.Properly.Or.ELSE
Tons of stuff to do. And i am unbelievably impatient with this stupid unfortunate that has happened to me! As quoted by the doc, i've got " Gastric Inflammation ".
Well, simple enough its sort of having a huge inflamed tummy. I dont mind the constant aching, but not being able to eat is NOT COOL. AND I LOVE FOOD. ARGH. STUPIDD TUMMY JUST HAD TO DECIDE TO ENLARGE ITSELF. okay whatever, its my fault. i shall watch what i eat from now on.
Anyway, living off macaroni and bee hoon soup now, but i guess it works. Gotta get ready/recovered by tmr! Jamming with Manifest to prepare for our showcase and dinner with veron! CRAP. well, its okay ill just watch in silence as good solid food (which i cant have) is being consumed. shit this is depressing. Not to mention NDP shooting on Sat, and pics i need to take at Bukit Timah. Okay, i need to chill. Oh mannn but this friggin tummy.
Ok random, . Time to focus.
Subscribe to Posts [Atom]
